Thursday, June 19, 2008
Get Your Cabin On.
I nearly deleted my last post. Second guessing myself for sharing too much. Second guessing the harshness of the language. I didn't though. I thought about it, and really. I cuss some times, maybe even more than sometimes. You can get off the floor now. I have a potty mouth. Stuck with me from my pre-good girl days. And honestly. Harsh words for a harsh life. Harsh reality. So girls. You've got me. The good, not so good, bad, beautiful, and ugly. Some times it slips out, and it fits. It fits the evil, hell, torment I lived through for years. I'll own my history and the poor language. Some days it just fits. It fits the fight I have to fight daily, it fits my anger, and frustration over the situation. It fits the un-fairness of it all, the wrong I have to undo, and the childhood I was robbed, the heartache I was handed.
But. I'm about more than just that. So. On a lighter (and more lovely) note:
We escaped to our family this week. Our trip was cut short due to sickness. We're going back this weekend, or maybe next week. It's ours to use when ever we like, barring no other family has made exclusive plans, which is rare that they have. It's my home away from home. My suto-Maine if you will. It's my escape.
After days - no joke - days and nights with about 2 hours of sleep each, I had a melt down, which you witnessed through an honest post, I decided it was time for a break. Time to focus on the fun. Focus on the kids. Focus on that it doesn't matter that we have no schedule right now. Time to focus on the fact that I don't have to (re) sleep train Olivia until a later date. She won't sleep in her bed now after days of being sick. Some days it's better for me to decide that it all just doesn't matter. The kids got the extra love and attention that I'm sure they needed, and I let my brain unwind. I had a chance to redeem myself as friend, playmate, and mother. Win win situation right there.
So, hang on to your seats, because I have pictures. Many pictures, but this likely is the only sneak peek of the cabin you'll get this summer. We go there often, I won't bore you with each trip. Over loaded? Skip this part.
But, if you are interested, let me sweep you away to the cabin with me, even if only through pictures.