Monday, September 8, 2008

I should have known. Giving it UP!

The visit.

Oh, the visit.

The visit sucked. Although sucked with short bursts of tolerable moments.

This is what I learned:

1. I'm fat.

2. My home isn't good enough, it's too small, I need to add on, or buy a new one.

3. My kid's "get up" isn't what rich people approve of.

4. Oh. And the best part, was realizing, what I always feared. My grandparents are emotionally unavailable to me. Duh.. right? They know fully what I have suffered, but stated there must be some way for me, ONE TIME, "get it all out", and be "done with it".

I've spent the last few days not functioning to full capacity, but I'm feeling like my old self again, and have bounced right back into my old "screw 'em" attitude. Some days, though, I wish things were just a little bit easier for me.

But, then again, wouldn't we all??

In the spirit of trying to get my rear back into gear in the blogging world, I am hosting a GIVE A WAY. Yes, me! A give a way. My first, but there is a second one coming soon, just to keep you on your toes.

Here it is:

For your "play tea time" pleasure. It's dainty and sweet. You have one week to enter, I'll announce the winner NEXT Monday. Leave a comment if you want it, and we'll see if it wants you back.


Lara said...

First, (hugs), and I am glad you got through the visit. Sorry you had to "learn" all the things you did.

And, heck, my girls will love that, so I'll enter. Why not?

Charity said...

Hang in there. You are perfect as you are and are a great mother and sister. I love you just the way that you are. I will enter for the tea set for the girls :)

Mandi said...

Misty - what can I say, well there is a whole lot, but I think that it would be deleted because there would be far to many swear words for the system to cope!!!

SCREW THEM BABE, there does come a time when you have to let do, I do not mean let go of what you have endured, but let go of toxic relationships that go nowhere. You have to step back and say NO I am not going to let you do that to me anymore, you can do that now, which is something you had no control over as a child.

I had to do this with my Mum a few years ago, it was way too toxic and I just let go, I stepped back and didnt have any contact for quite a few years, now she has come back and realised that she values me, as her daughter and as a person.

I dont know if this will help, but thought I would share.

I wont enter the give away, because it would cost you a small fortune to send it to me. I will just wait until I am in the US next time and come and give you a big hug - thats the best give away ever!!!

Glad your back, I missed you!!!

Kami said...

First things first, all those things you "learned". UNLEARN THEM. They are all false, untrue and horrible.

You rock just as you are.

Screw em is the right attitude sister!

Awesome Mom said...

I am sorry that the visit mostly sucked! At least it opened your eyes a bit and now you are wiser.

Marie said...

Awww Misty, I'm so sorry that you had such a lousy visit with your grandparents. Screw them. That's my honest opinion. You're a wonderful gal and don't ever forget that! Here's a lovely quote from my beloved Gordon B Hinckley

"You must know . . . that you are not alone in this world. There are hundreds of thousands of you. You speak various languages. And every one of you has something divine within you. You are second to none. You are daughters of God."

I think that says it all. Raising my glass to a fellow daughter of God. and wow, that is a lovely tea set if I don't say so myself! (I know, I just did!)

TUTU Monkey said...

Like the rest of your posters first things first....Hugs....and sorry about the stinky visit with your grandparents...:(


Third...ahhhh how cute..the tea set is lovley!! :)

LaskiGal said...

Don't waste even a second more on it. My hope is that one day they will open their eyes and just GET IT.

I hope it is soon . . . You deserve so much more and so do your beautiful children. AND, you are lovely. Inside and OUT! Period. Well. Exclamation Mark.

And the tea set wants me back. I'm certain of it. It told me so. Can't you hear it???

PokeyAnn said...

Don't you wish you could turn the optimism off. I do, all the time, that "maybe" that "impossible sliver of hope" would just die, because it ain't happening. I wanted to call you a thousand times, but didn't want to interrupt your visit, next time, I'm all over ya. I love you sooo much, you amaze me.

PokeyAnn said...

And by next time, I mean when I want to call you I am, not next time you see "those" people, because "they" don't deserve you! And we do, we love you and think you rock the rocking chair!

just jamie said...

Oh Misty, why can't anyone in your family get it right? It pains me. It bugs me. It pisses me off. Patrick tells me (when our family does screwy things) that our family starts with us, and goes downward. As in us, the kids, their kids, etc.. So glad you have THAT. You, Andrew, the kids (4 of them!) and so on...

Love the tea set. Super adorable.

Heather said...

Sometimes you do just want to say "screw 'em all" but in the back of your mind, there's always that nagging voice telling you they are your family, they have to have love in them somewhere and next time, you'll find it.....

That little tea set makes me think of the one my grandma gave my daughter right before she died. I don't know where she got it but she was keeping it in a saltine box til we came to see her. It wasn't too long after that she passed away, 10 years ago in August. We still have it, and other than a baby blanket she made, it's the only thing I have to remember her by.

Cheri @ Blog This Mom! said...



Klin said...

They just don't get it. Because IF they did, they'd have to feel the guilt that is THEIRS; for NOT stopping it.

Best defense- No be there. (From Mr Myagi in the Karate Kid)

Sometimes easier said than done.

Thinking of ya.