Wednesday, August 13, 2008
Who wouldn't feel more safe at home with this man around?
Now to change gears. I got my period today. Which was a surprise, because the 2nd drug I need to take was to actually induce a period. The Metformin, which I am on now, is working, better than expected. Don't get excited. There'll be no extra effort this month. If I were to get pregnant this month, the baby would be born end of May next year. I can't miss out on the kid's end of-the-school-year-celebrations, so the first month I want to give birth next year is June. That's why September will be the big push with Clomid. Funny to be talking about next year's summer vacation when we're just ending this one.
I can't say I've been spot on this week. I have things planned for the kids and I to do, but now that I'm working from home 25 hours a week, even fun activities can be an extra stress. Yesterday we bowled and I took the kids out to eat. Today was red box night and treats. Tomorrow we have lunch out, plus feeding the ducks, and playing at the park. I'm looking forward to it, but in the back of my mind I'm always planning on how I can get my hours in, school prep in, cleaning in, with out totally wiping myself out. Which is a joke because I am so freaking tired.
And. To top it off, I bitched the kids out tonight. I swear the neighbors think I am satan, that is, if they can hear me. I worry too much. Screw 'em, right? The kids were fighting. I was trying to put away (new) clean clothes for the kids to have for next week, and to top it off, Hannah and Ian decided to let Olivia play in a sugar bowl - - you know the drill, I had sugar all over my kitchen. I yelled at the kids, sent them to bed, got my oldest two up again because I felt guilty, they started fighting again, I sent them back to bed, let them get back out, and here we are. Some days I tell ya.... some freaking days.......
I'm just trying to do it right, get it right, be right, feel right, love right, scold right, teach right. I'm tired. So, so tired.