Wednesday, November 4, 2009

How do your shoes fit?

I am wearing a pair of shoes. They are ugly shoes. Uncomfortable shoes. I hate my shoes. Each day I wear them, and each day I wish I had another pair. Some days my shoes hurt so bad that I do not think I can take another step. Yet, I continue to wear them. I get funny looks wearing these shoes. They are looks of sympathy. I can tell in others eyes that they are glad they are my shoes and not theirs. They never talk about my shoes. To learn how awful my shoes are might make them uncomfortable. To truly understand these shoes you must walk in them. But, once you put them on, you can never take them off. I now realize that I am not the only one who wears these shoes. There are many pairs in this world. Some women are like me and ache daily as they try and walk in them. Some have learned how to walk in them so they don't hurt quite as much. Some have worn the shoes so long that days will go by before they think about how much they hurt. No woman deserves to wear these shoes. Yet, because of these shoes I am a stronger woman. These shoes have given me the strength to face anything. They have made me who I am. I will forever walk in the shoes of a woman who has lost a child.

-Author unknown


Trisha Larson said...

So beautifully said!!!

None of us want to wear these shoes. I agree.

They are warrior shoes of sort. They have their battle scars and they are not pretty. NO one wants to sign up to face such a battle. But, because we have, we will win the war. We will understand things in life that the pretty shoe people will never understand. We will love others deeper than the care free flip flop people ever will.

These shoes are an unwanted gift. But they bring many blessings. We just have to get comfortable in them.

Hope that makes sense.


Holly said...

This is one of those poems/sayings that hits home for all loss moms.

Trennia said...

I wear my shoes everyday too :(
So sorry...I know your pain.

Merry's Thoughts! said...

My eyes have tears in them and my heart aches for you. I know that God has you and those that wear those shoes in his hands. I hope many things for you Misty...May you have some peace today.

dianalarose said...

Misty - You don't know me...I was blog surfing and stumbled upon your blog.

I'm a professional writer (mostly of rather unexciting technical material, though), and I am very impressed by this post and others. You are a gifted writer.

Although nothing can make up for the loss of your precious child, perhaps a small piece of this loss can be mitigated by using this gift to communicate to others the important things your experience has taught you. So many people would benefit through hearing your words!

her♥mother said...

Wow; what these words mean to me. I have worn such shoes now for almost seven years. And I know that I will wear them for the rest of my life. I am always grateful for my daughter, and am grateful to have known her love if only from within. I'm sure you too understand this. But the pain is so great even now after seven years.
I came randomly across your blog; I am so sorry for you loss. May God bless your family and that new life brings about great healing in your life. I will pray for you. From one grieving mother to another...