Friday, January 8, 2010

Lost the baby.

I miscarried this week. I had a D&C done yesterday to clear out the remaining tissue my body wasn't wanting to give up. Details at a later date, feeling a little rough and empty right now. I was relieved to find out there was no abnormal tissue, and that this was my first "complication" that doesn't come attached with insane odds. My OB sees a miscarriage 1 out of every 6 pregnancies, where he's only seen Anencephaly TWICE in 25 years, Isaac was the second. This was just one of those things - - many, many women have miscarriages, and nature came through when something did not connect right. We'll rest, and try again down the road. Doctor said all my labs and vitals are excellent. What a hard knock though.... I mean... really........

Love, Misty

38 comments:

Merry's Thoughts! said...

My heart is breaking...my tears are welling in my eyes...as I read this post...nothing compared to yours. I haven't stopped praying for you...but I cry to God at this moment...may He wrap you in his arms and carry you Misty. Please know you are loved in this valley of despair. He will not leave or forsake you!
Love, merry

Stephanie said...

Shit! Can I say that here? It seems called for. I'm so, so sorry. I know what you're going through. It's difficult. Unfair. Angering. Horrifying. I know. But it gets better. It heals, Misty. It may leave a scar, but I promise you it heals. I know that probably doesn't help right now.

If you ever want to talk, I'm an email away. I'm a good listener. And I've been there. Take care, Lady. Love to you and your family.

Grandma Rozla said...

My heart aches for you! Hang in there :)

Cheryl said...

not the outcome everyone was hoping and praying for...but you said something so powerful in terms of it not connecting right..I want nothing more for you then a perfect pregnancy and healthy little baby. Try and get some rest

Kaleena said...

I am so very sorry. My heart is aching for you.

Jana said...

Misty,

I have been following your blog since you were pregnant with Isaac. I am so sorry to hear this sad news. I have kept a prayer for you and your family in heart. I admire your courage through these tough times. Hang in there. Our Heavenly Father loves you and your family.

Just Breathe said...

((HUGS)) I am so sorry. I will pray for your comfort.

Emily said...

Oh, Misty. Praying for you, sweet girl. And sending you lots and lots of e-hugs. :(

MommyIvy said...

I am so sorry.

Shannon said...

Oh Misty! I am so sorry! Odds don't make it any easier to go through. I'll be praying for you and your family. (((((hugs)))))

Debbie said...

This sad news made me cry...I am so deeply sorry. Rely on your unwavering strength to see you through yet another challenge. Sending you my love and prayers.

Jenny Bay said...

Misty I am SO sorry! Hang in there.

Holly said...

Oh Misty, I am so sorry to be reading these words. :( I was hoping and praying everything would be ok.

(((hug)))

S said...

Misty, I am so, so sorry. I can relate to your loss. Hugs and prayers..

I have a good life said...

Oh, Misty! My heart sunk when I saw the title of that post. I am so sorry. I cry for you and with you. I know it happens (A LOT), but that doesn't really make it easier, does it? Love ya.

Michelle said...

I am so sorry...

Jodi Lansink said...

Oh Misty, I am soooo sorry. Not what I was expecting when stopping by your blog. I will be thinking of you, that breaks my heart for you.

Anna said...

Oh Misty, I am so very sorry for your loss. Please hang in there... don't give up. xoxoxo

Alex's Mummy said...

Dear Misty, you are in my thoughts and prayers as you travel down this hard road. much love Natalie

Franchesca Cox said...

I am so so sorry, Misty. Prayers and love

Jason, as himself said...

What?!

I am so sad to hear this.

Yes, it is a common occurrence, but that doesn't make it any easier. Probably even more so for you.

*Huge sigh.*

*Big hug.*

Mom Putnam said...

Oh Misty, I am so sorry. I know what you are going through, I had 2 miscarriages myself but it is nature telling us something went wrong. I am glad that everything else was ok as far as no problems otherwise. thinking of you.

Verna said...

Nothing we say can make the hurt go away.

I am so sorry to hear this. Will continue to pray for you.

Hugs to you and your family!

Lara said...

Darn it, Misty! I am so sorry. Miscarriages are tough, I know from personal experience.

Thinking of you.

Hamars4 said...

Hang in there love... I know God has a plan for you. It's gotta be a good one. Just hang on to those three you can and let them know you love them. We're all loving you and wishing you everythig you dream of. Love you.

Lindsey said...

I'm so sorry, Misty. I know there are no words of comfort, but know that you are being lifted in prayer.

I may not always comment any more, but I am still here, friend!

Prayers!

Sara x said...

My heart breaks reading this, i pray God helps you as your heart heals.

Kami's Khlopchyk said...

That is so terribly sad Misty, I am sorry.

Michele said...

Oh Misty... I'm very sorry.

Rebecca said...

More babies coming...never surrender...Isaac is planning something very special with Heavenly Father and you will not be empty long. Prayers for you and your precious family.

Mom Putnam said...

Just wanted to write again and tell you that I was thinking of you today. (( HUGS ))

Michal Ann said...

Misty dear, I'm sure you're having your ups and downs but I do have to say that you wrote a very "strong" post. I'm so relieved that you have hope and the view that you ARE healthy and WILL try again "down the road." On your "road less traveled" you have many loving companions journeying with you. You are not alone for a minute. What a community you have built!

I am praying for your healing, rest and comfort. (My word verification code is "cuddli" so I add my virtual ((((hugs))) to the hundreds others are sending your dear family.) May hugs abound in the household!

Psalm 27:14

Wait patiently for the Lord.
Be brave and courageous.
Yes, wait patiently for the Lord.

Melissa said...

My heart breaks for you...

You are loved. I wish the best for your recovery phsically and emotionally.

just jamie said...

Oh Misty. I can't take the pain, but I will always be your friend...to listen...
Love you.
-jamie

Laski said...

Misty, I'm so sorry.

Doesn't make sense. Yet, who am I to say?

I take comfort in "labs and vitals are excellent."

I've been there . . . here. I have. I'm thinking of you now.

Mary said...

so sorry to hear of your loss, Misty. I pray Isaac welcomed his brother or sister into Heaven with a big hug!

Ashley said...

I'm sorry to hear that. Word that are just as empty I know, but truly I'm sorry. It seems the older I get, the more children I have, the larger my "God List" gets. You know the list, the one that will require a soft seat at the feet of the Father, a good heavenly coffee and begins with "Why God...". I can't wait to hear His answers.
I hope that He gives His comfort to you in ways you desire and ways that you need. Our prayers are with you.

Karen said...

I stumbled onto your blog today. I read through a fair bit of it till I was crying so I hard I could no longer read. And even though I was crying for your losses, I was also as emotionally touched by your love and compassion, your strong spirit and the very person you are. You are truly inspirational. I pray that you will find the comfort and courage you need to continue on your journey. I know from personal experience that God will bless you endlessly and that with out a doubt there will be more love and joy in your home that your heart can hold. Much love and prayers.