Wednesday, October 19, 2011

Ponder this.




I stole this picture from facebook. That's ok, right? So read it. And think about it. It says a lot to someone like me who has some pretty hefty abandonment issues. The soft part of me wants to cry a little when I think about it, and the smart ass in me is wondering if it's ok to trip them when they are walking away.

To my mother - You know, if you were truly off your rocker, why the hell did you think you should have kids anyway. And FYI, you don't leave your kids in the middle of the night and not bother saying goodbye, dumb ass. You've screwed your kids up FOR LIFE. Your broke their hearts.

To my father - Giving up your kids for a girlfriend. TOTALLY lame ass. And rude. And heartless. Especially when your kids get molested and pissed on there. Shame on you. Pretty sure your name is under a special kind of word in the dictionary, and it ain't the word father either.

To my adoptive parents - Shame on you. If you HATED being parents, you should not have adopted kids. You don't get kid and treat them like shit. You don't get kids to pad your resume or to make you look like a better human being. You don't get kids and not feed them right. You don't get kids to beat them up. You don't get kids to do all your house work, yard work, cooking, and cleaning. You don't get kids to lock them in their rooms, ignore them, and scream at them that you hate them. If you hated being a parent, you shoulda called in quits. Like. FOREVER ago.

To friends that walk away - Your loss. I'm pretty freaking amazing. A lot to handle sometimes, yes. A lot to edit out sometimes, yes. Leave your head spinning sometimes, pretty sure that's a yes, too. But let me tell you something else. I am loyal. I am devoted. I am wild. I am funny. I love like mad. I would do anything for you. I would rescue you, take you in, feed you, help you back on your feet. I would cry with you, laugh with you, take on your enemies with you. Once I know you're safe to love, I would never abandon you. If you cannot see that when I act out, I am just afraid, you have no business knowing me. I am soft hearted and afraid. All I want is your love, too. Not to mention I give amazing hugs.

So keep walking...... and like that picture says, too, your part in my story is over.



xoxo Misty

8 comments:

Kami's Khlopchyk said...

Don't let the door hit you on the way out is my motto!

I love this post because it is ridiculously true.

xoxoxox

S said...

Misty~
I'm so sorry. I think you are quite beautiful and wonderful!! Hugs!!

Pokeyann said...

You are awesome! I'm amazed how you can put these things into words. One of my great regrets is that I didn't get to know you when I lived closer, not that I would have wandered from my doorstep, lol. <3

DysFUNctional Mom said...

Holy wow. That quote is amazing and could not have entered my life at a more appropriate time.
You are certainly entitled to having abandonment issues. You are the kind of person who inspires me; instead of becoming a whiny victim and blaming your horrible life on others, you have made a wonderful life for yourself and your family despite what you went through.

Klin said...

How I wish I could get some of my clients to see your perspective. They are hurting so bad and it's illegal for me to kill their parents...or I'd probably consider it.

It's a great saying and I am trying to decide what I love more....the saying or your post. Both are profoundly accurate.

Sarita Boyette said...

This quote says it all. I'm glad you found this and embraced it. I'm so thankful you have a happy loving family with your husband. (((HUGS)))

I have a good life said...

I see you as safe, loyal, and amazing even after the heartaches of life. Thanks for always being there for me. I really appreciate that we are friends. :)

Holly said...

How true that quote is!