We're BOTH alive.

Friends. Especially ones I know out of blog land. I've barely been functioning. We're had a scare here in pregnancy valley. I've been experiencing some bleeding... coming and going... off and on....Wasn't quite sure what was up with my growing babe. But. Good news. The babe is alive, healthy, and formed just right.

I'm officially coming back to the land of the living, now that I can cope with my life. Uncertainty? Not my friend.

Oh Baby.

So.

Friends.

Do I have a treat for you.

Make this soup tonight. I made it yesterday. We ate the whole pot. It's a guaranteed kid pleaser, and takes - like - less then one hour to make. And let me tell you...... SO delicious.

I have - to date - taken - I think - 8 pregnancy tests. I swear I will no take any more. I simply cannot believe this good fortune, especially now that I have gotten a dark pink line! I had the good news minus all the waiting and angst. Minus the planning and scheduled baby sex. It was easy. And a gift from God to me. Trying to get pregnant with Olivia created serious problems for me. I'll spare you the details, but my history of abuse brought up feelings I could barely handle, and it took about a year and a 1/2 to recover. This time around, I've stayed in my "happy place", not letting my mind wander to things from the past, feeling determined to get through this bout of fertility drama - - and I got my most prized wish anyhow. Some one UP THERE is looking out for me. Disaster diverted. HUGE time.

In the next breath. I worry so much about getting pregnant, and now I worry so much about BEING pregnant. What happens if some thing goes wrong? What happens if I have a miscarriage? What happens if this wonderful gift gets taken away? What if those tests were wrong? I am a whopping 4 weeks and 1 day pregnant. As the weeks pass, I think I'll settle down. I hope.

Stop it already right? Believe me, I'm TRYING.

Let's you and me just go make more of that great soup. That'll fix it!